Friday, May 27, 2005

ShucKs....I aM a CrYbAbY!!

I CRIED...damn...made a fool of myself in front of my ct class? What the hell was happening to me at that time? Probably going thru emotional period...this was what really happened...
I had the leadership camp for the past 2 days...the lst day was ok...but i was quite disturbed by the activity tat we were supposed to stand on the table 1 by 1 to shout out our goals in front of ur class...(damn embarassing)...i missed my chance which is like phew..However...my big mouth landed me a second chance...(which is like dun wan lahz...)but i still did it...cause my class supported me...so...thanx
2nd day...a disaster...this activity requires us to have trust in our classmates...i am supposed to climb the chairs and fall in my classmates' arms (like a cradle lahz)...believe in them tat they will be there to catch me...i got to be the first one...but it did not succeed..i fell...hit the ground with my butt...(not pain lahz..)...but i was upset cause i let my class down...(my falling position is wrong mahz...) i can see tat they are also sorry for not catching me...but it's really my fault...i dun trust them enough...hmmm....but i broke my own promise!!!ARgH...i promised not to cry in school one...haiz...
This camp really bonded my classmates together...and i am glad to see tat...but i still had doubts if this bonding can last forever...but for now...i am happy to be in this class cause i believe tat we will always be there for each other...:P
Oh ya...i heard tat there is a petition going on with ny students...there is a possibility tat nyjc may changed to ccjc...(chung cheng jc lahz...) and many students objected this idea...this is really a sensitive topic for me...cause i am an ex-chung cheng...when i heard ppl say chung cheng sux...i feel really sad...but i think we shld not change the name...let nanyang be nanyang...
Btw...got lep camp...quite looking forward to it...can bond with 6g ppl...but i gonna miss the pageant show(miss universe 2005!!)....argh!! I know my group for lep camp...i dun think i noe anyone...how huh? haiz...guess the next time i blog will be after the camp...hehez...haiz...after camp will have make-up lessons...argh!!! and have to study for mid-year...hmmm....sad sad sad....(yeah...later got library trip...with ong and dor...)

tat's it at 6:39 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

A finALLy-wAiTed BrEaK?

Laughter needs no language, knows no boundaries, and does not discriminate.
It is a powerful expression and has all the ingredients for uniting the entire world.

heyhey...interesting saying hor...this is my research for pw...hmm...doing on laughter therapy (gpp)...I find it is very useful...cause i believe laughing can really chase all our troubles away...at least for some time :P...and unite the world? hehez...i need some serious laughing now...
been a busy week...let me see...had 2 SPAs and LEP tests...argh...quite a disaster man...the chem spa...i nearly used the wrong solution...but luckily i managed to discover my mistake in nick of time...haiz..but still got some probs with calculations...bio spa lehz...haiz...simply..messy and no time...dun they noe i am a slow and steady person? aiyohz...LEP tests were juz disgusting...i almost suffered frm hand fractures cause i wrote non-stop for 2 and a half hrs for paper 1 & 2...(juz like humanities papers...)I wonder if i can survive for the mid year exams...becos each lep paper is 3 HRS!! (So total 6 HRS!!!) OMG!
Love friday...cos it's the last day of the week...no more tests to worry for the time being...went to vj infusia concert wif ping and hui...their co really got standard...their string ensemble also played like professionals...not bad lahz...(esp...the co president...hahahaz...jk) the conductor...guo ling qiang...is very funny...good stage presence. (i expected him to be taller though...hehez)
I was quite disappointed tat i did not get chosen for the exco...haiz..maybe cos my skills really sux and i lack of relations...maybe also cos i am not born to be a leader? Cos i realise tat the older i get...the less enthu i am...i was a monitor/prefect in my pri sch days...active in drama and music...when i came to sec sch...was a committe member in class/ grp leader in class and ccas...then when i come to JC...hahaz...juz a normal person...sad sia...really miss those "glorious" days of leading ppl :P...there goes my testimonial for JC...(somemore only 2 years...where can have enough achievements??)hmm...juz wait for opportunities to pass by...and try my best to grab them?
HeHe...Next week is the I & E week (self-learning) and camp week...can slack a little bahz...but still have some homewrk to do...hope i will enjoy the day camp...(i really need to boost my confidence man...) :) Looking forward to the lep camp...cause i am involved in the performance night...(LEP idol?) hahz...

tat's it at 11:31 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

beTtEr wEeK?

hmm...a lot of things haPpEnEd this week...aPpArEnTLy...good ones...i gUEsS...hehez... firstly let me apologise to ong...cause i failed to turn up for the outing today...had to settle some important family matters...(haiz...my parents quarrelled lohz...so sad...I have to be the peacemaker...atmosphere now at home is like so tense...haiz...) hope tat they can reconcile soon...
Ok...enough of the sad events...gonna cheer myself up with some fAnTaStIc NEwS...hehez...let me say about nAfA...hehez...sure there were surprises...for 5 items...I am very HaPpY for my standing broad jump!!! I actually jumped 158cm!!!! Although i still fail ( is an E...so still considered fail lohz... muz get at least D) but compared to last year...i improved by 15cm!!! I also failed my inclined pull up...only managed to do 3...muz do 5 lohz...but i am still satisfied...i dun mind to go for afternoon pe lahz...treat it as a form of exercise lohz...HAHA...now this is the shocking part...guess my results for 2.4km run...(my arch enemy for years...) I pAsSeD! huRrAy! With an unbelievable result of 15.58mins!!!! sO proud of mYsELf lehz...yEaH! YeAh! YeAh! (sorry...i am turning mad...) there was also something i am happy abt...my work is actually appreciated by my chinese teacher...she used my answer as a model answer..(sort of)...it may not be a big deal but to me hor...it had been so long tat i cld contribute to the class academically...hehez...
I am worried for next week...cause i got many tests and SPAs lohz...hope i can do well in them...wish me luck then...
(btw hor...i e-mailed to elvin ng and he actually replied!!!hahaz...happy sia...)

tat's it at 12:20 AM

Monday, May 09, 2005

a qUick OnE...

hEhe...supRIsEd to see me BlogGInG on a monday??? I am quite shocked for myself too...hahaz...actually...I juz want to type some of my thoughts down...blah...so this will gonna be short and sweet...anyway...I think I sounded very terribly upset and stressed during my previous entry...izzit? Cause later...many of my good pals came up to me and comforted me...AHH...very touched and happy tat I got many buddies to share my woes...so I wanna tAke ThIs oPpOrTuNiTy to thank them and I really aPpReCiAte their concern...I want to let ya all know that...I feel much better now...at least for today??? Hehez...I wonder where my "happy-go-lucky" self went to? hahaz...muz find it back...so the old chEeRfUL me will be BaCK! aiYoHZ...think i am going crazy again...btw...I GoT matHS lEcTuRe TeSt and NAFA tEsT tml...which is like...err...die lohz...! i think i am gonna pia maths tonight...and try not to think abt NAFA...(cause i am gonna fail anyway...even god can't help me in this...) ArGh! feeLing ThE sTrEsS back liaoz...so FasT! oh man...
(PS: yOz...i cant seem to comment on my tagboard...so forgive me if i dun reply ur msg in there...thanx...i will try to fix the prob...)

tat's it at 2:29 AM

Friday, May 06, 2005

cUrSeD wEeK?

sImPLy...bReAtHLeSs...tIrEd...StReSsEd...fRusTrAtEd...gLoOmY...

HmM...I juz wanna say...I really had a bad week...dunno why but things seemed to go the WrOnG way...so...the question is...am I cursed? WhO can give an AnSwEr?
Let me saY coNgRaTs to ong...because her sch's CO managed to clinch a gOLd aWaRd for SYF...as for my sch...haiz...a SiLvEr aWaRd...I expected it when we performed on tat fateful day...we were too messy i guess...and a bit weIRd? Partly...we faced VeRy StRoNG competition...I was really hoping for a GoLd though but it may be god's will to take it away from us...wHy? I was sad cause my hard work did not pay off...it really worsened my day or shld i say...week...I realise ny is going on a silver streak this year...cause all our SYF groups got silver award...why can't we ShInE?
Haiz...I am in the TAF club again...as usual...the problem is tat i have to be involved in the 6.45 programme...wat's tat? It is to come to school at 6.45am, three days a week for morning runs...damn...why must we have morning runs? I rather have afternoon runs so tat i can sleep more...aRgH! WhY torture ME? I haD maNy TeStS this week...and u noe wat...i ThInK every test I took this WeEk will faIL...cause i simply didnt study...i was too depressed and tired...juz too many things had happened...hahaz...and as i expected...i failed my firSt BIo test...kinda regret takinG BiO...cause it is REALLy in dEpTh...AND I hate it...but i will perserve since i have more time now to study...(No sYF le...)Juz wIsH mE LuCk...I need all the luck i can get...(LEP is getting on my nerves...) I am taking the HSK exam again(got compo and oral...yikes!)...this time is the highest level of difficulty...cause the teacher said tat the one i took in sec sch may not be very useful. I felt cheated...then why did I take it during sec 4? Waste my time and money...aiyohz...

CongrAtS to BiN...cause she is selected to a couNsELLor in ny!!! She won the votes of many...so i am happy for her...:P...so jia you! NY organised a personality test programme for the students...It is DISC...4 catgories...I belonged to S...which means the slow and steady kind...kinda true...hahaz...and it is quite fun to noe more about urself...not bad not bad...

Here am I...grumbling again...forgive me if i am under depression...give me some time to recover lohz...hehez...thanx...gonna blog off now...see ya...when will my curse be broken?